Grief is lonely.
Lonely because when you are feeling so terribly…
the one you want to talk to the most..
Is likely the same person you are grieving.
Lonely because when you look out the window..
And everyone else is going about their lives..
Laughing and planning..
And you just want to scream at them.
How is life just going on when yours stopped??
Lonely because even if everyone is grieving the same person..
They still don’t know how you feel.
Because your relationship was unique.
Memories, inside jokes and your stories…all one of a kind.
Lonely when people don’t want to meet your eyes.
Because they don’t know what to say.
So they say nothing.
Or stay away until they think you should be feeling better.
Because they just don’t understand how this feels.
A lonely journey. Of praying for hope. Of talking to your loved one and only being met with silent answers.
And willing yourself to move forward (a step you can only decide to take on your own) ..
Even when the only thing you want to do is stay back in the days when….
You didn’t feel so alone.
Back in the days when they were still here.
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